Held Back or Held By God?

copyright Millie Plastaras 10/17/2007

Good Morning Everyone,

Have you ever been mad at yourself for something
you have done? You felt you could kick yourself?
Or have you ever regretted something you did so
badly, you didn't know how to work past it?

Have you ever felt guilty about the way you
treated people in the past, and you felt there was
no fixing it? What if there is no second chance?
Are you going to hate yourself and feel bad the
rest of your life?

In essence you are telling yourself:
My life is a mess, I have done so much wrong, I do not
feel loved, or wanted, or even deserving of it. I have
messed up my relationships and my career, hurt my
family, nothing I do seems to turn out right.

These things, piled on top one of another, added
with other burdens we carry, produce a self
condemnation within us that become a spiritual bondage
holding us back from joy, peace, and living life to
it's fullest.

They are like a dead weight within our spirit that
weigh us down, and rob us of our joy, and most of all our
hope. Once hope is deferred, or seemingly lost,
life can seem bleak, and a very unhappy place to be.

The dictionary gives this definition of condemnation:

the condition of being strongly disapproved of; "he deserved nothing but condemnation"

My precious friend, do you feel condemned today by others?
Do you feel condemned by yourself?

Let us read this together. Therefore (there is) now
no condemnation (no adjudging guilty of wrong) for
those who are IN Christ Jesus, who live and walk
not after the dictates of the flesh but after the dictates
of the spirit. For the law of the Spirit of life
in Christ Jesus (the law of our new being in Christ)
has freed me from the law of sin and of death.
Romans 8:1-2

So let me get this straight. When we are in Christ,
we are no longer condemned but forgiven? Because
we are walking after Him, seeking His ways, and not our
own? Because we are forgiven, covered by the blood
of the Lamb of God who took away the sins of the world.

My friend, if He can forgive us and condemnation is
lifted from us by his atoning, why are we for one minute
spending time condemning ourselves? Why do we
time after time hate ourselves for things we do,
and condemn our self to failure and self dislike
and self condemnation?

Could it be satan uses this as a tool to
effectively keep us so upset we never progress past
it and do what Christ has planned for us to do?

Recently I have had some things happen in my life,
and they were so painful, I have spent hours trying
to work past them. Asking God to shed his light on
my situation so I could see it clearly and do what was
right in His sight. To help me let go of it and move on.

After a week, of some fairly intense internal agony,
I was listening to some praise music and started praising
the Lord, and singing along with the song. Instantly
I felt that condemnation and burden lift. It was just
gone. God had removed it. And in it's place I felt
His authority rise in me. You do not ever have to
feel condemned. You do not ever need to hate
yourself. You do not ever need to feel bad about mistakes.
Learn from them, apologize and move on.

Forgive others, it is their problem what they are doing
wrong, and let God deal with them.

It doesn't matter what they think. It matters what God
thinks. It is He we account to. Not everyone will like us.
Not everyone will approve of us. Many will talk about
us, and be unkind to us. So what. Life goes on, and
we still have places to go, people to see, things to do.

We must rise in strength, with the hope of the Lord
fueling our hearts, his forgiveness and mercy new
and fresh and reviving to us each morning, and
we must be held to a higher accountability. To be
a disciple of Jesus Christ, seeking to walk in the
spirit always and not the flesh.

We are not wimpy, we are strong.
We are not in bondage we are free.
We are forgiven, not unforgiven.

Act like it!

We are not condemned, we are free.
Receive that.. and live accordingly.

Do not return to the former condemnation that
the world and your own misguided thinking flung upon
your spirit and your mindset. Shake it off and be free
by the renewal of your mind in Christ Jesus.

Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew
a right, perservering, and steadfast spirit within me.
Psalm 51:9

Therefore we do not become discouraged
(utterly spiritless, exhausted and wearied out of fear).
though our outer man is decaying and wasting away,
yet our inner self is being progressively renewed
day by day.
For our light, momentary affliction is ever more
and more abundantly preparing and producing and
achieving for us an everlasting weight of glory
(beyond all measure, excessively surpassing
all comparisions and calculations, a vast
and transcendant glory and blessedness never to cease!)
2 Corinthians 4:16

We are equipped, we are beloved, we are forgiven,
we are free. Do not receive the condemnation
and loss of hope. Don't put that on yourself.
Receive a renewed mind, mercy and forgiveness
and move on in God's strength and RENEWAL daily.

We have work to do. No one you know is perfect.
Get over your past, get over your mistakes, and do
something.. positive, while you have life left in your body.

Do not fritter your days away on that which does not profit.

love
millie